You could have provided us with more information about what and who exactly we were facing for starters, what you'd seen of the dark water in your time with it. But I think you know that. Maybe you're just trying to divorce yourself from what happened back then like he did but in a less extreme way. It must make it harder knowing you had a hand in things given what you lost so I am sorry for that.

And I'll ask you to remember, in turn, that you speak as someone who was our only option in a brand new world unlike any that we'd ever come from... so to call us foolish for surviving as best we could is frankly unbecoming. You know as well as I do that none of us simply trusted in your good intentions. I'm not coming at you with judgement so I'd appreciate the same courtesy in return. We were stuck in an impossible situation. We had no one else but you to turn to, and we were frankly lucky you helped us survive. Yeah, I know it helped you too, but still I'm aware of the alternative.

( It was the Merchant or the Undead - not much in the way of options, but he is obviously the better choice. )